I have to apologize for my long absence here, but in all fairness, I've been less than focused and able to hold a singular thought for any length of time. Today I actually feel better and I'm trying not to over do it and set myself back. I do want to send out many, many hugs and kisses to you all for being such amazing Girls of prayer and encouragers to this weary soul!! Your comments and emails have been such a tremendous source of encouragement and rays of positive hope during this less than shiny time. Some of you have asked what the physical illness is, truthfully the short answer is, what is right..... I have a extremely broken immune system that is reacting horribly to all of my other stresses of life and now the only way it knows how to react to such elevated stress is to have debilitating pains and reactions. I'm currently caught between doctors visits and insurance dilemmas. Recently, I had a big upset with my kidneys and pains in my lungs and heart. My hair is falling out and I have a crazy skin rash. Great, just what every Girl wants when she needs to feel better about herself, huh? ;) I'm trying to find some humor in this not so funny mess. I'm not sharing this for "poor pitiful me" so much as I share because you cared enough to ask. I know for some of you, it's a power point for prayer and it's working! THANK YOU!! Praise Daddy, today is actually the first day I have truly felt somewhat, dare I say, normal and not so dismal and hopeless. My skin itches like crazy and my head is still not clear, but my heart is lighter with hope and I have you to thank for that. I really, really do thank Daddy for each of you! So please forgive me for not visiting so much lately and I will do my best to very soon. I just love you all and am missing you so much!!!
xoxox,
Ellen
